The Path
Life changer
In my twenties, I started to study as an international development worker. I never separated my private and my business life.
I felt that the search for love and sexuality stirred me so much, that I had to experiment with this topic. I overcame the feelings of jealousy and envy. This research showed me clearly the competitive and numbing impact of society on everyone and everything on earth.
In my fourties i realized that my sexuality was disconnected from my heart. The reunification of my heart and sexuality took place in 2012 through a relationship that was profound and a true initiation.
I am now in my fifties, a father of three adult sons and a ten years old daughter. I have worked and traveled for the past ten years to refine my skills through different living experiences in communities, and also attending several intensive tantric educational workshops and retreats. I have discovered that holding space for others is a gift and the more I practice it the more I thrive.
I do my best to remain open to the pain and the joy.
Consequently, I have now more capacity to embrace the union of the feminine and masculine inside of me, and to perceive it all around me.
Slow transition and tantric transformation
My father introduced me to the teachings of Bhagwan during my teenage years. In 1989, I was nineteen, I took my first steps into Buddhism through a baptism with Ole Nydahl. As a student, I discovered a deeper sense of body wisdom through the practice of Tai Chi Chuan.
As mentioned in "Life Changer" above, a relationship with a consort on the path made me increasingly aware of an energetic barrier within me — an iron layer, so to speak, separating my heart from my sexual center. Diana Richardson articulated perfectly what I had been experiencing. I realized, that I went throw an tantric relationship. The impulse created greater inner union and I felt profoundly blessed and experienced a tremendous release of tension and inner disorientation. This new embodiement inspired me to share this knowledge within communities such as ZEGG and Tamera, where it found deep resonance.
The journey toward greater consciousness about what is unfolding within me has only just begun. It was in Tamera that I met the founder of the House of Tantra. Estera and Zenon welcomed me into a deeper exploration of energies and connection. In the years that followed, I traveled the world, gradually taking on greater responsibility — for myself and for others — learning through transmissions, tantric ritual workshops, and extensive reading.
In 2017, Dechen (formerly known as Zenon), one of the founders of the House of Tantra, initiated me into his interpretation of the Kashmiri session — a tradition he himself had received from Daniel Odier.
Lama Yeshe
books and videos
He wrote or gave speeches about “Introduction into Tantra” and “The bliss of inner fire”. His early death is a pity. With humor and patience, he could reach a huge range of listeners. The books give the fundamental theory and the essential tools for the tantric path.
I used this books for randomly deepening my understanding and knowledge.
Transmissions
Between 2017 and 2019 (except Ole Nydahl), I took refuge and gave vows to different Lamas from Tibetian Buddhisms. And I was invited by the "house of tantra" to join their workshops and to learn and to support, raising the awareness for energies and doing your own practice.
House of Tantra (hot)
I met the founder of hot, Estera Sarasvati and Zenon ( now Dechen) in Tamera.