The Path
Life changer
In my twenties, I started to study as an international development worker. I never separated my private and my business life.
I felt that the search for love and sexuality stirred me so much, that I had to experiment with this topic. I overcame the feelings of jealousy and envy. This research showed me clearly the competitive and numbing impact of society on everyone and everything on earth.
In my fourties i realized that my sexuality was disconnected from my heart. The reunification of my heart and sexuality took place in 2012 through a relationship that was profound and a true initiation.
I am now in my fifties, a father of three adult sons and a ten years old daughter. I have worked and traveled for the past ten years to refine my skills through different living experiences in communities, and also attending several intensive tantric educational workshops and retreats. I have discovered that holding space for others is a gift and the more I practice it the more I thrive.
I do my best to remain open to the pain and the joy.
Consequently, I have now more capacity to embrace the union of the feminine and masculine inside of me, and to perceive it all around me.
Slow transition and tantric transformation
My father introduced me to the books and teachings of Bhagwan during my teenage years. In 1989, I was nineteen, I took my first steps into Buddhism through a baptism with Ole Nydahl. As a student, I discovered a deeper sense of body wisdom through the practice of Tai Chi Chuan.
On the path I became increasingly aware of an energetic barrier within me — an iron layer, so to speak, separating my heart from my sexual center. Thanks to somatic oriented therapy and a tantric relationship I experienced greater inner union and felt profoundly blessed. A tremendous release of tension and inner disorientation also took place. This new embodiment inspired me to share this knowledge within communities in Europe such as ZEGG and Tamera, where it found deep resonance.
It was in Tamera that I met the founders of the House of Tantra. Estera and Zenon welcomed me into a deeper exploration of energies and connection. By gradually taking on greater responsiblity — for myself and for others — I have learned through transmissions, tantric ritual workshops, and extensive reading.
In 2017, Dechen (formerly known as Zenon), initiated me into his interpretation of the Kashmiri session — a tradition he himself had received from Daniel Odier.
Lama Yeshe
books and videos
He wrote and gave speeches about “Introduction into Tantra” and “The bliss of inner fire”. His early death is a pity. With humor and patience, he could reach to a huge range of listeners. The books give the fundamental theory and the essential tools for the tantric path.
I used this books for randomly deepening my understanding and knowledge.
Transmissions
Between 2017 and 2019 (except Ole Nydahl), I took refuge and gave vows to different Lamas from Tibetian Buddhisms. And I was invited by the "house of tantra" to join their workshops and to learn and to support, raising the awareness for energies and doing your own practice.
House of Tantra (hot)
Estera Sarasvati and Zenon ( now Dechen) in Tamera.